Its been a rainy quiet week.

Its friday and its literally rained every day this week. I don't remember the last time we had a spring like this. The temperature at night has been in the 50's and 60's.!! Honestly, I am not complaining because i know for sure that i am going to be miserable when the heat hits. I am going to enjoy the comfort for as long as I can.
So after last weeks torn ligament episode I decided that there was no way I would make it 5 weeks with out know if this baby was OK, so I order a hear beat doppler. It's called Angelsounds. It arrived Saturday morning and it works great. It does not count the heart beat but I was able to find it and hear it perfectly clear. I started to panic a little bit when I couldn't find it at first so I decided that I wouldn't check every day. With Chris not being home I don't want to freak out at night if I can't find it. So, I asked Chris to hide it and I will only check on weekend! Tomorrow Saturday and I can't wait to check again.
My belly is getting bigger and I am having a hard time fitting into my clothes. Thank God for the Bella Band, but I don't know how much longer I will be able to use it. I was looking up maternity clothes when I came across a website for a massage place called Edamame. Its located in Paramus on route 4. I decided to go check it out. Its actually located inside Destination Motherhood. Edamame is a very small massage area that caters to just pregnant women. They offer differnt massages and treatments. I check out the place and thought it was very clean. I also looked very calm and relaxing just like a spa should. I booked myself the Vital Leg Treatment. Its a customized leg treatment that reduces water retention and provides an instant lightness and freshness to tired and swollen feet while increasing circulation and restoring energy to fatigued legs. It ends with a relaxing shoulder and scalp massage! I can't wait!!! After I booked the appointment a sales women broughtme some water and asked me if I was shopping for anything specific. I told her I could use some bras. Well she measured me and these boob are out of control. I think she measured me as a 40E!!! The store doesn't carry that size but the plus size section had some 42d and DD. I tried them on and hated them. I bought one but I don't why i did. I am use to warting my minimizer which hold them up firm and tight. These bras provide no support at all. I then decided to try on some tops. I am running out of clothes to wear to work. I walked around for what seemed like an hour before I picked somthing out to try on. I tried on three tops an a dress. All the ops had th elsastic under the boobs and made me look like I had two cannons on my chest and that I was 8 months pregnant. The dress looked horrible. I left the room crying for my mommy. I guess I am just not mentally prpared for this. I am not comfortable showing off these large breast. I have been wearing a minimizer for as long as I can remember!! After my 20 week appointment my mom is going to help me shop. I just hope I am feeling better by then adn these boobs don't get any bigger!!!!!

Its Friday!!!

Its' Friday, I'm at work and I can't wait to start the weekend. I will be sitting home tonight alone as usual. I conplain that I am alone all the time but secretly I love it. Don't get me wrong, i would love for Chris to work days and be home at night. It would be so nice to have dinner with him every night.But sometimes i just want to be alone to do what ever I want. Laugh, cry, chat on the phone, watch a chick flick or sit on the computer for hours search the web. Tonight I think I will order some food and rent a movie. I am feeling pretty good and looking forward to date night with myself.
So, our 16 week appointment went well. I lost three pounds, my blood pressure was in the normal range but a little high and Dr. Gallo was able to find the heartbeat right away with the doppler. We left and he told us to come back in 4 weeks. When we went to make the appointment the recepcionist told us that the ulrasound technition would not be in that week so we would have to come in the week later. I was a realy upset. Having to wait 4 weeks is hard, waiting five weeks is going to be torturous!!!
After the appointment i went to work. later that afteroon I started to feel terrable pain in my lower abdomen. It was about two inches below my belly button to my felt. I kept thinking it was round ligament pain, but it was in the same spot and it wouldn't go away. I had the pain all night and it kept me up. By eleven the next morning I was getting really worried. I knew the baby was Ok because I just heard its heartbeat the day before. I called Dr, Gallo and he said to come in for a urine test and that it probably was a bladder infection. So I went late that afternoon. The next came back negative. Dr. Gallo did an ultrasound and the baby look great. I was really glad that this happened because I got to see the baby. he did and internal exam and concluded that I twisted a ligament. I took the next day off of work and relaxed on the couch. He said a heating pad and and warm bath would help. The pain started to go away and I felt a little better today.

Sixteen weeks today!

Today I am 16 weeks along. Alot has happened in the past few weeks. I wish I had more time to blog and update but it always seems like I get side tracked and than forget. I can't believe how fast the past 4 weeks have gone. Everything was great until week 14. I noticed some brown spotting on my underwear. I thought maybe I was seeing things so I out a pad on and sure enought I was spotting. Surprisingly I didn't freak out. I just kept thinking to myself that brown blood is old and OK. So, I called Dr. Gallo and ofcouce he said to come in immediatly. He check me and couldn't find any blood but to be on the safe side he ordered me to stay off my feet for one week. That was the tuesday before Memorial day weekend. We had plans to go upstate that weekend. I stayed on the couch for 4 days. It was terrable. I did get to watch some great movies. By Friday I was ready to go crazy. I just don't know how some of these women on bed rest do it. We decided to go upstate. I just sat around all weekend and did nothing. The bugs were terrable to I spent most of the weekend inside. I didn't sleep well and honestly I couldn't wait to get home. It was a crappy vacation. I think I need to book a mini vacation this summer. Anyway we went back to the Dr. the day after Memorial day. Everything looks great. Dr. gallo said I have a low lying placenta and that is probably where the blood is coming from. He said if the placent doesn't more that i will probably have to have a c-section. I was not happy when I heard this. I always dreamed of having a vaginal birth and to be honest I am a little scared of the c-section. Not of the procedure itself but of being tied town to a table with a screen in from of my face. I am extremely clostraphobic and agoraphobic. Anyway, the baby looked good. My next appointment is tomorrow. We got the bad news at this appointment last time so I am extremely nervous. I feel like everything is going to be OK but I just hope I am not fooling myself. If everthing goes well I thing I will seriously consider getting dopller to get me through the next 4 weeks. I haven't felt the baby more yet and I don't think that is going to happen for a few more weeks.
Chris has been home from work for the last four weeks. It has been so nice having him home at night. He has made dinner every night and has really helped me around the house. He goes back to work today so I will be going home to an empty house. I am actually a little anxious about it. I am tired of being alone at night and actually a little scared. I'll probably stay awake until he gets home at midnight. I am not working tomorrow because of the OB appointment so I can stay awake.
This weekend we went down the shore to my parents house. The weather wasn't that great so we never made it to the beach. My clothes have been getting tight on me so my mom took me out shopping. Target and Kohls had nothing. I did get a new pair of pajamas and one shirt. My paretns really want to buy me some new clothes, so if everhthing goes well tomorrow I think I might let them. My cousin Daniel is my size and she did all her shopping at desination motherhoos so I guess I will go there. I also want to check out Edamame. Its a maternity spa!! I can really use a massage!!
Ok... keeping my fingers crossed. I will update tomorrow after my appointment.

12 Week NT Scan

I can't believe how fast the past three weeks have gone. It’s hard to believe that I am already 12 weeks pregnant. Today we had our 12 week NT scan. I was so anxious!! I asked my mother if she would like to come to the appointment with us. I knew she would. She’s never seen an ultrasound before and I knew she would find it really exciting. I asked her Sunday night after our Mothers day dinner. After I got off the phone with her Chris’s grandmother called. Chris told her our news and she started to cry. She was so happy. I started to cry, not because she was crying but because I suddenly felt really scared. I just asked my mother to come to the Dr.s with us. What if the Dr. tells us there is no heart beat while she is there? Chris’ grandmother is crying she is so excited; I just don’t want to disappoint anyone again. I was crying and telling Chris we should have waited, we shouldn’t have told anyone until after the appointment. So needless to say, Monday night I didn’t get a wink of sleep. My mom met us Tuesday morning at the Dr. I was so nervous I could throw up. I could tell my mom was nervous also. Chris was as cool as a cucumber, as always! The technician took us right away. I hoped on the table, pulled my pants down a bit, she squired the cool gew on my stomach and with in seconds I was able to tell that the baby was ok. My mom couldn’t see it, but I knew!! The technician took some measurement of my ovaries and fibroid before she really concentrated on the baby. The baby looked perfect. I can’t believer that in just three weeks it went from looking like a little blog to an actually tiny baby!!! The NT measurement was 1.3 which she said was in normal range, the heart beat was 172 and the baby was measuring a week a head which is fantastic news. I could tell my mother was relieved and she really enjoyed being there. I am so glad she came. We were done in minutes. I have some blood taken and we left. I had never been so happy. Our next appointment is in 4 weeks! This appointment will be an important one. I’ve never made it past 16 weeks so hearing a HB at our next appointment will be amazing!!! I just home the next 4 weeks go by super fast!

Mothers Day

This day was bitter sweet. I was so excited to share our recent pregnancy news with our parents. Keeping this huge secret from my mother was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. We are very close and speak almost every day. I ordered some really cute necklaces for the moms. The necklaces had the words “baby on the way” printed on them along with November’s birth stone. I waited all day Saturday for the mail to show up. But it never did. I cleaned the house on Saturday and shopped for the upcoming BBQ. I can’t believe I had to cook. We always go out to dinner for mother’s day but this year my mother in law didn’t want to. Something about not wanting to be rushed. She didn’t offer to cook, my mom did, but I couldn’t let her do that, so I offered. I cooked, cleaned and prepared for Sunday. Saturday night I ran out to Buy Buy Baby to find a last minute gift. I found the perfect picture frame. Silver with the words “I love my Grandma” printed on the bottom. That night I took the only ultrasound photos that I had and placed them perfectly inside the frame. I woke up early Sunday morning and went out to buy some flowers and a card and wrapping paper. I wanted everything ready and perfect for when the parents showed up. I set the table, showered and before I knew it they were at the house a 2:30. Of course my father in law had to work and didn’t show up until 4 pm, so because of that I had to wait to give the moms their gift. I wanted to give it to them as soon as they walked in but I wanted the whole family to be there so we waited for my father in law. As soon as he walked it I said, “Let’s do gifts now!!” I ran upstairs and got the flowers and the neatly wrapped frames. Chris grabbed the camera and we presented the mothers with their mother’s day gift. Immediately my mother says,” I think I have an idea of what this is? Is this a repeat of Fathers day?” My mother in law thought the same thing. They loved the frames. They were very happy and excited but not surprised at all. I thought I would have been overcome by joy and excitement but I just felt nothing, kind of sad. I was happy for the moms, maybe this time they will become grandmothers. I was just sad for myself. This was suppose top be my first mothers day!!! I should have been eating in a fancy restaurant holding and feeding my baby. Instead, I cooked, cleaned entertained and did the best I could to try to surprise them. The day went exactly as I had planned and before I knew it they were on there way home with smiles on their faces and their picture fames in their hands. I went strait to the couch, now feeling completely emotionless, just waiting to go to bed. I knew I would feel better in the morning.

9 Weeks!

This appointment came very fast. I guess it was a little less than two weeks. The appointment only took a few minutes. My blood pressure was good and I gained one pound. I told him if was from all the Jelly beans! The Dr. did an ultrasound. The baby still looks like a little blob, but much bigger. We saw the chambers of the heart pumping and the baby was squiriming around. The Dr. said everything looks really good. I asked him if he sees a difference between this pregnancy and the last one and of course he said no. This concerns me but there is nothing i can do about it. Anyway he said to stay away from the Jelly beans and come back in three weeks from the NT. I was a little upset when he said come back in 3 weeks becaue in my mind I was going to see him every other week, but the NT needs to be done at 12 weeks so I have no choice but to wait. Three weeks is a long time!! I was throwing the idea of getting a doppler around and decided to ask the girls on babycenter.com. It seems to me there are mixed feelings about it. I think it would help to ease my worries during the next three weeks but I can't help but think that I would feak out if I couldn't find the heart beat. Espcially since I am home at night by myself. I also think I would become a little obsessed with it. I am still not opposed to the idea, I guss I will just have to see how I feel over the next couple of weeks.
Overall, it was a good appointment. Chris and I than went to Bobby Flays new burger place which was excellant!! I think I will be sending Chris there often for take out!! I had the best night sleep last night. Usually I am up most of the night because of my stuffy nose. I went to be with reenforcements, humidifier, saline spray, used the netti post, vix under my nose and a nasal strip on top. I know it seems a little excessive but it worked and I was albe to sleep 10 hours!!! I forgot to set the alarm and slept until 8am!!! HopefullY I will get many nights of good sleep over the next seven months!

I love my OB!!

So last night we went to see my OB, Dr. Gallo. I was so nervous about seeing him since I haven't seen him since the D&C and the last time we spoke he had deliverd such terrble news. As soon as I walked in the nurse smiled at me. She remember who I was and it seemed like she was happy I was back. She called us in right way. She took down all my new information. I explained to her about the blood thinner and Dr. Alvarez. She took my blood pressure and my weight and than told me my due date is Nov.23rd. Just in time for Thanksgiving and hunting season. Chris is thrilled. She walked us to the room and congratulated us. By then I was starting to feel much better. Dr. Gallo walked in the room talking as usual. He is so kind and compassionate!!! He was happy to see us and congratulated us as well. He didn't ask many questions about my 6 months journey. He was happy about the blood thinner and baby aspirin. He said I can also take a regular vitamin instead of a prenatal since I am taking so much folic acid. He said he wants me to take in real easy for the first 12 weeks. No cleaning, no exercising, no lifting and if I start to spot again he is going to put me on bed rest for 24 hours. I am not complaining! He wants to see me every other week until the second trimester. I wish I could see him every week, but every other makes me happy as well. He will also determin when I will go back to Dr. Alvarez. After we did all of our conversing he turned on the ultrasound machine. I got a really nervous feeling in my stomach. I guess that is going to happen every time I have an u/s or when the Dr. checks for a heart beat with the doppler. He found the baby right away. He said the sack was perfectly round and the baby looked really good. The heart beat was 140 and we got to hear it this time. It was amazing. I couldn't stop the tears from rolling down my face. He also said my fibroids are no where near the baby and he didn't think they would be a problem. He really took his time with us and I appreciated it. Neeless to say we left the office feeling really good!!!! Its the best I have felt in the past 6 months! I can't wait to go back on Monday.